Desires of the HEART

Desires of the Heart

LIGHT and LOVE…I still go back to my NDE and savor the incredible memories of a place   where time stopped and I was enveloped in iridescent white light ~ with incredible LOVE. My heart desires to relive that event in my life from time to time.

A few days ago I found myself mesmerized as I stared into the early morning sky that appeared to be cloudless, but the sun had not yet broken the horizon. I had lit many candles simply to “lighten up” my thoughts, because even my heart appeared dark that morning. My mind was wandering to people that I love and care for. A few that are really struggling. Sounds of my sleeping husband were fluttering through the house. But staring into the light of my candles…I disappeared somewhere for awhile.

I have a sign in front of me there…but it fades into back memory at times. On this day,  I KNEW it was important for me to remember it and take the message in. I knew gratitude for all that IS was so much more powerful than spending useless thoughts on looking back or predicting a future for someone.

“When you Love what you have, you have everything you need!” 

As I touched my heart space I began to realize that the joys in my life are centered around people and their happiness. My heart jumps a beat as all three of my sons and their family’s images pop into my view. Shared sadness pours in for a neighbor I am very fond of who is suffering with stage 4 brain cancer. And gratitude for my sister Marj’s beautiful recovery keeps me smiling as I take in the scenery around me. I ponder the flickering candlelight as images of my ever-living brother Bill pop into view…wondering about what form HE might be in at the moment. I can so often feel his presence. Sometimes it is in fun humorous ways. I know that he surrounds our whole family, especially through the everlasting love he had for his wife Norma. My heart desires to ease her burden of grief…knowing all the while that we cannot live another’s triumphs or tragedies FOR them. But, I know my heart desires to send all of my friends and family a quick prayer of love full of gratitude for their presence in my life. My own body feels the elevated energy when I do this.

Changes are prominent this time of year for lots of reasons. Fall is coming our way and all we have to do is pick up one single red/orange leaf to absorb the beauty of the moment. Driving along the highways and byways of our eternal life present us with reasons our earthly existence is so important for us to experience.

I have to share a story. There is an old friend that I keep in touch with that came into my life during our many years of traveling to the jungles of Peru. It’s hard for me to believe that it started now 32 years ago!! Talk about a time warp.

Norman managed one of the lodges where we stayed.  I often had conversations with him that today would fit right into all the spiritual musings of my life. He would tell of “ghost” stories rampant in the jungle of sightings of people walking the trails that would disappear from their sight as soon as a person would QUESTION what they were seeing. Oh beliefs can sure alter our view. He always loved to hear my NDE stories…some of the first people that I really elaborated on my experience because natives there often share NDE stories. We had meaningful spiritual discussions about life!

Anyway…Norman now lives in Florida, but made a recent trip back to the place we all loved and remember with fondness. I loved his recent photos. Memories simply flooded back into my heart. I love his art.  He really puts his heart and soul into his expressions of this beautiful talent.  He put up a Facebook post recently and he asked people to respond…

“If our eternal make up is spirit and consciousness, why is it that we have to experience this physical realm?” 

About 99 % of the people answering  with responses like; ” Good Question”, “Food for thought”, “We make up stuff”, “Might just all be a dream”, ” It’s a mystery”, ” We have lessons to learn”, “The Universe has a strange sense of humor”, “perhaps practice makes perfect?”…to which tons of people made lots of comments like,  HOW can this be perfect?? Of course Florida has just been torn to shreds by hurricanes and tornadoes.

I can’t possibly write all the responses, but some of them were quite good and really show us  that people are thinking and they are searching for answers. My heart reminded me many times, there is NO right or wrong answer and immediately judgement of any of the words simply disappeared. Instead intrigue and understanding was in place in my heart.  Someone wrote a quote by Marcus Aurelius. I immediately thought of my brother Bill…and all of us who might envy where he is and YET…here we are. Then I had to look up…WHO is or was Marcus Aurelius… I am SO taken…I love the meditations of this man who was born in the year 121  and died in 180. He ruled the Roman Empire for two decades… Check it out!

“When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.” ~ Marcus Aurelius

I have to applaud Norman, I sat there reading all of the comments quite a few times! How would YOU answer that question? I found myself going back to asking myself…

What are the DESIRES OF YOUR HEART?

Therein lies the answer to why I am here. And as you can see I LOVED this particular quote…it holds lots of answers for me. I will arise in the morning and think what a privilege it is to be alive, breathe, enjoy and love!